Friday, May 20, 2016

On Loss and Love and Learning

Dear Friends,

First let me say I'm more sorry than I can say to have been so long away without reaching out to you. I had lost my way and I had lost my blog-voice while I was finding the route back to myself.

So much has changed over the last while: loss and love and learning. Foremost in my mind and heart is that my Mom, and very best friend, died in March unexpectedly from blood clots. (I still reach for the phone to call her and am learning how to try to find the comfort of her love in everything as I deal with her passing. I've been in Ontario since March taking care of things... I normally live in BC.) The grief has been harder than I could have fathomed, as you might imagine. Though the changes in rising to the challenge of taking care of everything, as her oldest child, have also brought new connections with old friends and countless beautiful awakenings. I've been surrounded with more support and love than I'd ever dreamed possible so as much as I'm trying to manage grief I'm also flooded with gratitude.

My Mom was my first blog buddy on here & she was always reminding me to foster the connections I was lucky enough to have found on here with you all... but I didn't know how to return to these pages. I had lost my files & felt I had nothing of value to share. I felt voiceless because of personal issues, and didn't want to get your hopes up with another false start of my revisiting blogging.

To be honest I have been using all of my creative energy for sometime now to recapture my health. I was battling depression, agoraphobia, weight, and social anxiety. Now I've since made friends with that side of myself in a very joyous way, but it can be a full-time job to do so naturally with healthy eating and exercise (as I know so many of you know intimately.) I was dealing with chronic pain & found I couldn't muster the strength to craft and photograph or create new digital work. But... over the last year I've slowly lost over 90 lbs and turned my life around from chronic illness to feeling oh so alive again. I've opened my heart to new friends and grown in many many ways. I finally feel ready to be creative, though I'm not sure what form that may take.

I just wanted to reach out and open my heart to you. I have been holding you in my thoughts even though I've been so quiet. I hope your days are filled with joy & creativity whatever form that takes for you and I hope to be able to reach out here every so often with a little something.


Friday, October 2, 2015

Happy World Cardmaking Day!

butterfly hello

"It's been so long now, but it seems that it was only yesterday. Ain't it funny how time slips away?"

Shocking, how time flies by while you're busy with quotidian things, isn't it? (All the apologies!) Things have been crazy here life-wise more and more good crazy, lately though. So... I figured I should finally pop out from under my rock to say hello and share a card!

This one is a simple one using some of my free ledger hexagon digital paper (that I touched up with a white gel pen to soften the lines and add tiny white dots for texture).

 There are two types: map & ledger...
with large, small, dark & light versions.

Other card details: The paper doily was dyed with black ink, spritzed it with Mr. Huey's Calico Shine spray, adhered with a glue stick and stitched it on with embroidery thread.

The butterfly was heat embossed using this Memory Box stamp (coloured with Derwent Inktense pencils and detailed with white gel pen and Copic multiliner.)

'Cocoa Bean Butterfly'

And the 'hello' speech bubble is an old fave,

Hope the world is treating you wonderfully.
& I hope to catch up with you again soon,


Wednesday, May 6, 2015

I 'Mustache' You a Question...

mustache you a question card

Confession, I'm a little a lot  tech-challenged. Case in point:

This particular pun-riddled card is one that I made a 'print and cut card kit' for, in the Silhouette Studio Designer Edition software, but when I got my new computer my custom files and my custom patterns wouldn't transfer with the new updates to the software (only the ones I bought in the Silhouette store).

So... long story short, as soon as I have access to my PC again I'll be sure to share my chevron cut file from last week and this card kit - in case anyone wants to throw together a quick and unforgivably punny card. (That should be in just a few days). And one of these days I'll figure out how to transfer all the other files.

Here's the inside of the card:

mustache you INSIDE

The mustachio'ed  smiley face was cut out of white cardstock (it cuts the mustache out of the circle): To add colour to him I just used Mustard Seed Distress Ink. That was backed with another circle with the mustache detail in Pumice Stone Distress Ink & doodled lines of black Sharpie marker. His eyes were added with the sharpie too:

mustache you a question doodle detail

You might remember this mustache paper (and overlay) from earlier days. It's one of my free printable paper sets and is available here in zip flies, if you like it:

... in many hues on white:

Mustaches (on white) - free printable paper SAMPLE
 ...and in solid too:

 Mustaches (solid antique graph paper) - free printable paper SAMPLE

Hope you're having an incredible week!